Mama told me not to waste my life,
She said spread your wings my little butterfly
Don’t let what they say keep you up at night
And they can’t detain you
‘Cause wings are made to fly
And we don’t let nobody bring us down
No matter what you say – it won’t hurt me
Mothers Day can be a bit of a mixed bag of emotions, I know my kids have big plans for me, they keep letting all their secret plans slip out. So I like to make time and space to remember my own Mum, ahead of the day.
I’ve dedicated lots of words to my Mum, her little legacies run through this blog. I found my voice as she lost hers to brain cancer in 2010. Blogging about losing her was the way I found my way, and into a new life writing for a living.
Dancing to Wings by Little Mix in the Swag section of the Red Nose Day Danceathon on Sunday, reminded me how much music and dance meant to her, and how good she was at finding the joy in things. The words really stuck in my head, and as I attempted the crazy dance moves I felt myself emerging butterfly like from what has felt like a bit of a cocoon. I wanted to do something with them.
I lost my way last week, with blogging, with life, with being a mum.
I lost my way this year, travelling to Kenya with Comic Relief was incredible, but took my grasp on the world from under my feet. Organising fundraising efforts since we got back has been fantastic, but emotional. It was worth every gram of energy, Team Honk raised 30 thousand pounds for Red Nose Day.
Putting these words and images of me and Mum together put me back on track, reminds me who I really am.
I wish she could have stayed a longer, to teach me how to juggle life as a mother, but when I look back, she gave me the greatest tool box for grown up living.
Sleep solutions, mind mapping, diary keeping, changing the world, marriage guidance, toddler taming, play therapy, recipes, permission to fail at the school gate – just some of the little legacies I have blogged about here.
My Mum inspired me to write, to travel, to make a difference in the world. To appreciate the little things and build big dreams.
These wings are made to fly, thanks Mum x